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(It seems so long ago now, like a dream, as it perhaps was…)

For you are my crimson love,
your face scorched landscape,
your lips honeyed wine on mine,
your hands precise instruments.
Touch me red heal me
my blood pulses your tempo allegro.
Kiss me.
I intoxicate myself in each ruby breath,
in your voice your resonant song.
I hum.
Set fire to me tonight,
kindle burn crackle
break me to my softness,
to my breath.
Find me.
I recall tomorrow,
anticipating always
you
your blazing skin
your scarlet sweet tick tock.

I want. I wish. Not “I need”—that’s justifiable.

Desire puts it all on the line, makes the moment, opens the door for another to walk in… or walk away.

I regret the words the moment they jump from my mouth, escape onto the page. I want them back in my head where they cannot jinx me, or hurt me, or subject me to the criticisms or objections that I do not want to face. Safe.

But no.. I would say them again.

The thoughts in our heads die without expression. Maybe some of them should do just that. But others… oh, others are life itself. And yes, I do want…

Pistachio ice cream is my favorite. The kind I like may not be the finest, but it is the greenest, has the most almond extract flavoring—way too much, but kind of addictive—and is filled with salty pistachios. Friendly’s pulls off this combination rather well, especially considering that the brand has been on sale for the past couple of weeks.

Remember when you were a kid, and you reached down in the cereal box, all the way to the bottom, to find the prize. My brother and I used to pour ENORMOUS bowls of cereal, professing outrageous hunger. We had a yellow Pyrex bowl that came in a set with smaller ones, red, green, and turquoise. The turquoise was the egg-mixing bowl, and the other two broke before I remember. The yellow one was used only for popcorn and potato salad. We poured the cereal into that bowl. Once when we tried that trick, my mom made us eat what we had poured. From then on, we waited more patiently for our prizes.

Usually it was all for something worthless, too, not unlike a Happy Meal toy. Once in a while, though, a Matchbox car could make it all worthwhile.

Jump forward a few years, and the prize is pistachios. Tonight I am not content to have a regular bowl of ice cream, but am hunting through the box, ignoring ice cream just to get at them.

Of course, picking all the good stuff out is not very adult of me. I do know that when I do that, the rest is more or less spoiled—or, at least, not as special without the most desired contents still inside.

But sometimes, greed gets the better of me, going after the good stuff all at once, leaving the rest to face later. And yes, it is worth it.

Just don’t tell my kids.

I won something!

After the woman read my number, she directed me to an assortment of beautiful glass, blown by the woman’s son. It was all exquisite: pendants and several small vases. But one caught my eye. It has been sitting on the shelf above my writing desk ever since. I look at it often, the way it catches the light.

I wanted to show you, and tried several more normal photos, like this:

and this:

This is a vase.

I do not have flowers in my prize, but find myself more gazing at it, letting my mind wander. Words come more easily to me than images. I pick up my small treasure, and gaze down inside, the smoke and haze and sweetness seducing me into my favorite color.

That’s better. Yes, just like that…